Mental Vomit

As Kevin and Bean would say,

“I quit this b!tch!”

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Things I’ve been pondering lately:

• I think I have AD(h for hyperactive) D. Seriously. It doesn’t really matter, since it’s just another label, but I think it would be neat to share with my students to show them that so-called “disabilities” don’t matter. I just can’t focus like I feel I should be able to sometimes, and I’m extremely fidgety. I noticed in a meeting for new teachers as I was shuffling papers and looking around that I was the only one moving. I was listening, but I just can’t sit still. Or remember what I’m talking about or keep my mind on one subject (see below).
• Last year I was new, and stressed, and just trying to make it through the year. This year started surprisingly well, the kids are good, none of them are too out there, and I feel more positive about the outlook. But, I’m still stressed. I wonder if there are pills for this kind of thing.
• Summer was a wonderful dream, and now it is over. =(
• I get a raise this year, and another one next year. Woohoo!!
• Is it reasonable to wait more than a month for a doctor’s appointment? Because… I called in August, and I won’t see my doctor till October 6th. F’ing lame. GRRR.
• I am young, happy, and have much to look forward to. Like birthdays! Lots of birthdays in the next two months.
• Why are Mom and Dad so emo? If I don’t smile or sound positive when we have brief conversations, they get sad and depressed. But — Mom did say she would get a dog when the kids are gone.
• Wicked was super awesome. Even though I felt it was a very feminine plot line with the bubbliness and all that. Maybe musicals are for women only. But Phantom seemed to have more to offer a masculine audience. Whatever.
• Pirates this weekend. Pictures next post.

Mom and Dad are gone again, to see Uyen off to college. I didn’t think I would, but I believe I will miss the little bugger. Home will be a lot quieter. I can see why they dread us all leaving the nest; the silence can be overwhelming at times.

I actually sat down in an attempt to get some more stuff done for work, and then when I got there, I realized that I don’t really work well that way. It’s kind of hard to plan for students that you don’t even know yet. I will try to come up with some more ideas, but at this point, I am a little stumped. That’s okay; I know I can do it. This year will be easier than last year, simply because I don’t have to worry about school. True, I have BTSA to do, but I heard it’s going to be a lot different (easier).

Went to church on Sunday, and it was so rejuvenating for me. I really want to start serving… I wonder when there will be time. I know that actually, I’ve got to make time, because there will always be something else going on — work, family, BTSA, Grad School. It’s so easy to forget about God; I started reading the Bible daily again. I have to admit that I did get bored of all the text — my head is feeling weird lately — and start reading my children’s illustrated Bible story book. I like all the 1960’s type pictures.
Lately, I’ve been out of contact with everyone. Forgive me if I’ve been distant, I just need some alone time. As my boss once told me, you can’t give from an empty cup. Passing the days looking at Facebook, reading blogs, and finding interesting photos. I am happy that I have started taking more photos; it makes me happy to see my life staring back at me. I should probably try to cure my insomnia. Apparently, it has to do with sleeping during the day.